Wednesday, April 30, 2008

TITLE: WHen it comes to you..

I dont always blog twice in a day..honestly,im a lil unwell..i went to the doctor n got 2 days MC. having a temperature of 38.3..already took my medicine n it has subsided..i tried to sleep but one thing came to my mind..my dear..

She told me that she was feeling unwell as well n what got to me most was the fact that she didnt take her lunch..guess her mood wasnt realie dat good..maye it was the fact that shes unwell or other wise...but whatever the reason is..shes always on my mind..Each time i wake up frm sleep..i wld think if shes ok..i am lying down on my bed but she working even though shes unwell..i told her to take time off but she told me that they would cut her pay..that too got to me..she is realie tryin to save up for our marriage n trying soo hard.

WHen i woke up at about 710 in the evening, shes the 1st person that came to mind again. I wondered, if shes safely home and wondered if she has eaten her dinner. when she had skipped her lunch..part of me dont feel good when i dont know all that and i just had to know..so told my mom that i wanted to visit her,took my shower n went to her place..didnt realie call her up to say i was coming..on the way, i thought..."ni confirm kena marah dtg tak ckp"...but nvm that i supposed, my intentions was to find out if shes ok..dats all..knowing me,i dont think my mind wld be at peace if i didnt know n i wldnt want that..

well, got her her fav chicken porridge, her 3 in 1 milo..got at her place n here i am..talking about my day..

whateva it is dat i am tryin to say...i just want her to know that when it comes to her, she will always get the best of me..i will go that extra mile to give her my best n make sure that she gets the best.my promise to her that i will take care of her is smthin i hold on to..when she doesnt feel good, i dont feel good as well..thats the thing..i cannot just sit down and do nothing when i know that smthin can be done..

anyway, shes right here beside me n im glad thats she has taken her dinner even though shes a lil unwell..at least tonite i can sleep in peace knowing shes ok.

to you my dear: when you are reading this,do know that i love you a lot and when it comes to you, rest assure i go the proverbial mile n you will always be safe here.get well dear,i love you.

Space out,

me

Rest My CaSe at 12:31 PM

TITLE:HOUse Problem????

PLayed at fico last friday with the guys n after the game,me ad some of the guys sat outside at the carpark and talked about getting our own place after getting married..Feroz didnt get the house he wanted and RJ on the other hand, is in a dilemma on whose house to stay after married..

One think that Feroz highlighted is the friction btwn wife and mother in law that always happens or exist..RJ talked about how sentitive the matter of choosing whose side to stay with..if he chose side A, then side B would be offended n vice versa...

I have to agree on the guys opinion..i seen it with my sis who said that she felt pressurised if she stays at her in law place..i guess the fact of expectations of the mother in law from the daughter in law is the main factor why most couple would
choose their own place.MOst daughter in law would be expected to do the chores n etc etc arnd the house of their mother in law..its that expectation thing that makes it difficult..trust me,it hard to live up to ppls expectation..what more a moms expectation..

That got me to think,when i get married..whats the best thing to do for me?i thought about it hard n i still have to agree withthe fact that i would rather hve my own place with my dear..there,in our own place,we can do anything we want to w/o worrying being judge n all dat..we can mess the house if we want to, not wash the dishes if we are tired n even pile the laundry and wash it when we are free.. She on the other hand wouldnt have to live up to any expectations and free from the pressure usually posed by mother in laws..thats my stand to this matter..furtermore, she can do up the place according to her style.

but should things dont realie go the way we planned n we have to stay at either place, i wouldnt mind staying at her place longer..i supposed guys generally wont have much problem with their in laws?n gurls would be more comfortable in their own place plus they are more comfy $with their own family..

like what Feroz and RJ said, whatever we do after married, we always have to try and take care the feelings of both sides..in laws plus our wife n i agree to that..

anyway,after thinkin and analysing evrything, i still would opt to have my own place. Heard that its realie realie hard. FEroz, RJ,Dave and atul did talk about how hard it is to get a place either by walk in or balloting in the HDB. Well have to start early on that.so been going to the HDB website to just take a look.

ACtually, im glad that the guys talked about it the other day.it gives an in sight of whats to come when you are married and how to plan things n all that. LIke how they said, you wont know how it feels until you go thru it. IF in the past we were talkin about homeworks, mcm mane nak copy in test...now..its different.how we all grew up...haha.

anyway, i hope the best for evryone in their journey in life. As a frd and knowing the guyd for 14 yrs plus, im glad that we are all stil together and talks about things.

to you guys: Hope this frdship will never end. Thanks for being my bros.
to my dear: i been thinkin a lot and we will get our own place.I think its the best for us.i love you.

and to other: well, enjoy the day when u are reading this.hope it gave some useful insights.

Take care ya all.

Space out,

me

Rest My CaSe at 12:09 PM



Sunday, April 27, 2008

TItle: Blogspot vs multiply..

Have been a blogspot user for yrs now..if u guys are wondering why i never changed my skin or changed the outlook of my site..answer is simple...its hard to do so in blogspot..I wrote the settings myself with a book at the site..rite now, i totally forgot how to do it again n it would be "leceh" to learn it all oveer again..buku pub dah hilang...

Anyway, my dear arfah is a multiply user..yeah..its on the link over on the right..n im amazed how easy multiply is plus its features available for users..nak upload photo punya lah senang..n nak tukar the skin pun senang gilerrrr....ah ah...gileerrr.

n my sources oso say that ade orng blogspot punya blogger ni pun switch side..haizz.traitor...n ade hati lagi ajak kita join mulitply..kalau terbaca n terasa sorie eh YAS...

i understand why one would switch to multiply anyways..

so making some basic comparison of loading photos, reorganising albums, changing of skin...i have to admit that mulitply does it much better..muliply would beat blogspot on in this basic area...

anyway, whateva the outcome...i love my blog ndun think would switch to muliply..haha.if i were to switch.it means blogspot gets too complicated to use...
furthermore, its my hard work u noe..hah..


ok so any bloggers reading this..u can agree or disagree to what i said above..but personally experiencing it..multiply deserves its applause..

yeah...n as im writing this..my dear is rite beside me..shes the "YEAH MULTIPLY..GO MULIPLY n MULITPLY ROCKS.."...well..we all have our own opinion...feel free to agree and disagree ya peeps..n to you dear..OK OK..MULITPLY BAGOSSS...JUST LIKE JUrong west!!!!!SUME ADE...U WIN!I LOVE YOU..x X X

Space out..

Me

Rest My CaSe at 11:46 AM



Friday, April 25, 2008

Title: The O show..

I dont realie listen to the radio during office hour..when i have the time..i dont realie like t0 listen to RIA from 3-4pm..this show with Fiza-O call "Gurlfriend"...back then when i accidentally tune in to the channel..they would always be talking about how bad guys are..its like a channel where ladies,gurls,women..or what we say.."kaum hawa"...wld talk about the things they dont like about their partners..i remember complaining to my mom (dat was zaman KnS..keje mlm).. saying.."asyik2 kutuk pasal lelaki"..haha..n my mom would say "dgr aje..asal sensitive sgt?"...i guess it was the way these ladies complained about their partner..

However, was in HOtel empat musim.."4 seasons hotel" just now where all the back office staff were malays..rata2 melayu. n they were tuning in to Gurlfrd..just now topic was about bad tempered guys would abuse their partners..n so all these ladies called in or msg Fiza to tell their stories..ade yng kena tumbuk sampai pecah gigi pun ade...all bcos the guy thought that the gurl was having some scandal...listen to it kind of remind meof two ppl i know..no names shall be mentioned as they are under age..lol..kidding on dat..just no names..dats all...

if u guys know person no1..keep it to urself...she got kicked at her stomach n punched on her face when she called us to help..me, lan,kai all went down to help n last2 duduk pat jurong entertainment centre punya KFC....yeah..dunnoe what happened to person im talkin about as that person dont seem to be able to decide...to the point where we ll got tired of advising that person...worst still..when that person bumped into us...she would ignore us even after we helped her few times..anyway, an advise would be...pls dont think with your heart but use ur brain..use ur brain...haha....o well..kai saw that person at woodlands sometime back n said that "dah mcm minah drug"..dunnoe how tru that is..but whateva it is...i got no comment....

the 2nd person that i know experience such incidents ..(no name be mentioned..signed the confidentiality form) all i can say when that person talks about that guy is that i gues hes another coward...i dunnoe.i dont realie respect guys that hit a woman..simple as that..my dad would wake up from the grave n slap me if he finds out i ever do that..well..this 2nd person hates the ex -bf soo much..so much to the core... that she keep on saying "kalau nampak dia...pin him to the wall n rembat dia cukup2 sampai muka pecah"....anyway...she left her ex...n u can see the difference in the 2 story...so whats the moral?...anyone????.....

scroll down for the answer...
















the moral is..."USE YOUR BRAIN!USE YOUR BRAIN!!"...

i was kidding...im no counseller.(is that how it is spelt?..makin tua makin WOLS..)spell dat backwords...

anyway for my lady frds out there..when such thing happen..do the right thing..if u've tried but hes still the same...do whats best for yourself..n for guys...listen 1st to the other person explanation..from what i heard from the radio just now..most are due to misunderstandings..anyway...the shocking thing is after listen to the O show couple of times..plus recommended by my sayang...(she always msg..dgr ria!) i think yeah...O show is not so bad...lol...n i even sent a msg to FIZA the other day...lol....OOOOOOOOOOOO....

ciao all....
shout outs to all..

to yuhua guys: jumpa pat fico! dont bubble2 like last week..
to my dear: i love when you drop those "i love you" out of the blue..." you IS my gurlfrd!".lol..
to kai: amcm reservist?..lol..
to the rest: guess "enjoyS" ur day when u read this...


space out...

me

Rest My CaSe at 12:46 PM



Monday, April 21, 2008

Title: My dear @ work

Orites..i know the same qns that you guys been asking me.." eh dan, your gf work as wat ah?"...okay..shes not the stereotype office lady that some of you think..Shes in the QA/QC department in an oil and gas company...the pictures will speak for itself..check it out ya...

Rest My CaSe at 3:45 PM



Tuesday, April 01, 2008

Title: Stupidity..

in life, there are always consequenses to our actions..some may have immediate effect while some on the long run and some times we pay for our mistakes or stupidity in handling things..it cld be due to our inexperience, our ego or the things we try to keep from others knowing..some cld be due to our dilemma..

As a person,im no exception. i made mistakes that i hide or i have secrets that i dont expect ppl to know..the truth is nothing is ever forgotten..whatever that hurts or is too shameful for us..we try to forget it...but the imprint is always there n nothing is ever really forgotten..lets get it out on the open..so that dat "layered" me that ppl always say i am..doesnt follow me..

1) as much as i suceeded in life, my studies..im a failure when it comes to personal relationships..be it wif my family or frds..i was too proud to tell my dad that i loved him all the while bocs he threw me out of the house..i never forget that..i kept evrything inside till his last few breath before telling him i loved him..

personal wise..in the past, those that noe me very well..knows i never had a gf..too shame to admit..i always smile when ppl ask if that my gf.."just a frd"...dats what i would say..bcos its the truth ..but only ppl presumed n assumed that "its more than frd".

family wise..my bro hates me to some extend..i can never communicate with him or have a real talk with him in the past or since dad's gone..u try n try but we can never talk.he goes thru my gf--arfah, to talk to me..

2) siti arfah is my 1st gf..the one and only..the 1st..some1 that i can say is mine..some1 that makes me feel safe opening up to n telling her my weakness....she is my eye in telling me things that i dont see abt myself when i am too blind to see..the voice that tells me not to give up when things get bad..im learning the wonders of love thru this relationship..some thing i never felt past yrs..n im proud to call her my girl, my bestfrd, my partner and my lover..

3)as a leader, when ppl c you as capable..i hide behind my weakeness, lie abt dat weakness-- afraid they would c me as incapable..but i forgot that lying abt it might hurt ppl that we loved unintentionally or directly when truth are known..when i fail, i tell "im ok" to others--- shameful to admit defeat that i have to hide..

4) i still cry when i go to the grave, regrets?.maybei cry alone..not in front of my family..i cried in the toilet when he passed away..something ppl or my family members dont noe..2 yrs..n the hurt of losing him is still there..

enuff said for today..im not feeling too good again..this feverish feeling comes and goes past weeks..b4 i end...piece of advice...

i just want to say that even small things matter at times..things we ignored or might not seem impt to us might be impt to our loved ones..and when you know that you are wrong..admit, apologise and never repeat the same mistakes again..

to all: take care wheneva you are reading it..
to my dear:i love you n you heart is my home..

space out all..

me

Rest My CaSe at 7:15 AM