Friday, September 26, 2008
TITLE: Home finally....
After 4days out at sea,my dear came back yesterday afternoon at about 3pm..fetch her at habourfront again..was early..so rush to Cocoa Tree to get her a simple welcome home gift..told the aunty to paste a simple ribbon b4 attaching a small note to it...went back up...put it on the front passenger sit and cover it with pillow and rushed back down..haha..anyway..a big shout out to my sexy lover...
welcome home dear!me..
Rest My CaSe at 6:16 AM
Sunday, September 21, 2008
Title: THe hardest word to say...
At times, saying things we want to say or saying deep things is always the hardest things to say...
what more if its to the person we love...
came early to my dears place today to help her pack up her things for her 4 days or more on a vessel..packed the things she brought along..the necessary ones esp..well,packed it the army way...wif ziplocks to save space and protect the contents..never know ifit rains or anything aight...dat aside..
was packing her things ensuring everything is sufficient for her and at times while shes surfing the net, i looked at her..so many things i want to tell her..she knows i disapprove this trip but i dunnoe.im helping her pack..i guess theres this part of me that wants the best for her on this trip..back of my head i need to make sure that she has sufficient necessities and what she needs to make her comfortable there...its one of my unspoken ways of showing her i love her and will always ensure the best for her..
anyway,shes looking forward to this moment..going offshore..she talked to me about it..i be selfish right to deny her of this experience..was on board once myself..now let her feel it..n looking at the vessel she be staying..its wayyyymuch better than what i stayed on back then...
i know despite my reluctance,deep inside whatever she does or whever she goes,i always pray for her safety...i always prayed for her each time after praying..don't realie tell her about how shes always in my prayers.....n for this trip,its already part of her job and i will accept.
anyway, most of her things are packed now...few things left..shes beside me now watching bourne identity...left a letter in her back as well..before i take my leave in this entry...a lil note for my dear...
To my dear,
im never good at goodbyes, it always makes me cry...as much as possible,i look away when i have to say it..again, please take care of yourself on board..i always pray for your safety and you are always in my prayers each day..you are still the 1st person on mind each day i wake up and the last before i go to bed..you know i cant never sleep w/o knowing how u r doing...call me whenever you can k dear...i settle the things over here..im already missing your kisses,hugs this month..n now im gonna miss you as a whole for 4 days or more...again..take care of yourself,haf a safe and enriching experience and tell me all about it when you get back...n before i take my leave..again,i say it in words..i love you and will always keep you in my prayers for as long as we are together...
love,
me
Rest My CaSe at 2:27 PM
Saturday, September 20, 2008
Title: My Pusuit of Happyness..
IN life, a lot of things we want to achieve or get...but whatever it is that we are after, it is something that gurantees us happiness we have what we want..
I am no exception...In my pursuit of happyness..i taste the hurt of failing, negativity and self doubt...past one half month..has been very very challenging for me..it came to a pt where i dont realie look forward to this upcoming hari raya..
In my pursuit of happyness..i hurt some parties...worst ws puttin my dear in an insecure position...despite assuring her that things will be ok..i know she has this doubt in her...i know she is stressed out..n i am part of that...
IN my pursuit of happyness, mom gave a lot of negative remarks...
two ppl that is my happiness, has doubt in me...i know that..they might hide it from me...but knowing them..i know whats on their mind..
Maybe the road to that happyness is tuff,its no longer a maybe...it is tuff...im going thru it...maybe i see that road..i love to see that road..but in that road...what matters is the two ppl that loves me and walks with me and not anyone would walk wif us the path.
i see myself now is exactly in that movie "in pursuit of happyness"...tuff,trying his best to prove two people he loves most he can make it...along the way, i did hurt and affected some parties..put them in situation they dont want to be..situation i said they never be in...
im not looking forward to this raya...i constantly thinkin of my best move...that sometimes it makes me have these minor headaches and it feels that my veins in the head is bursting...
before i go and break my fast, a lil shout out..
to my mom: abg tahu mama tak risau..abg cuba sedaya upaya abg at this point to keep abg pun ya promise...
to my dear: whatever happyness i am tryin to achieve, you are my biggest happyness..whateva assets i want to achieve...you are my biggest assest i never want to lose..i have to mentor now to help me achieve my happyness which is our happyness...believe in me and i assure you that it be a rewarding one when i make it...i'll give you something as an assurance that im serious about us and want to make it for us...
as much as i disapprove, please please take care of yourself on board...the least i can do is provide you with a comfortable experience with things you need and things i can buy or give you for your trip..i take this chance to susun sepuluh jari and mintak maaf zahir dan batin sekiranya abg ade sakitkan hati afah sengaja and tak sengaja and also buat u stress mcm gini...past one year,halalkan mkn minum abg..once again i mintak maaf..have a safe trip and selamat hari raya syng..i wait for you to get back.i love you.
to all: selamat hari raya.
to HIM: grant me that HAPPYNESS that i pursuing for..amin
space out.
me
Rest My CaSe at 6:32 PM
Tuesday, September 09, 2008
Title: Those were the days...
hey all, been a while eh?..yup..i know for some, you guys probly wondering.."where the heck is daniel?still alive or not?"..he is of cos..or else i wouldnt be bloggin this...:P
yeah..was away for almost the whole of august as was on reservist..then been busy running here an there in this property industry...tell you..its one hell of hard work!!!!!!!!..gotta be there to know it!!..dat aside..how have i been?...surviving i guess..lol..well, gonna make this blog a lite hearted one..
was reading my dears blog about how back then she would skip fasting..action puasa n the things she did...its a funny one actually..the way she put it down..her style of blogging...well..talk about fasting...haha..guys...ingat tak main bola lepas skolah lepas tu ramai2 minum air bawah blok sorok2?...byk korang punya puasa pun boleh tahan..haha..wel..those were the days..
lan, remember, minum air haram atas far east plaza before going to china valley, was it? to what my dear describe as tempat gelap2 n lampu plus music kuat2..at central mall...haha..well, those were the days...
but those days are over...longgggggggg over...
what ever we all did in the past, well its a thing of the past..the past is the past but it is now that makes the future..im glad that all my frds we have stopped all those things...at this age, i proud that evryone is mature enuff to think whats best for them..we are all at the step of going into a different level..and im glad most of us are in dat level n trying our very best to be the best of us,changing and preparing ourselves..transitioning into dat level..ikut hukum..wajib tu...haha.
i smiled when i read my dears blog..esp the msg she intended to me in her post..it meant smthn to me..thank you for the guidance..she wrote..
to you..my dear, just like me and everyone else..we are no exception from making mistakes, you made mistakes and you told me things you did..i accepted you the way you were and i accept you the way you are now dear..
insyallah, i will do my very best to guide you..n do the same for me k baby?we have our hiccups in this relationship..but whenever we face a certain obstacle..i look back at the wonderful moments we created and journey we took together...thats when my love understands n forgives..its not that i dont want to go hard on you..you degil n hardly listen..when it comes to you, i do what i have been doing all this while...like what you always say..i have a way with you..whatever it is baby,happy times, sad times,hardships, i walk with you and i pray you feel the same..we will be all right..a lot of things i wanna say..someday you will hear them...but remember this golden rule whever you go baby..i love you lots..
to everyone else: selamat berpuasa...n moga bulan puasa this memberi we all lebih berkat..
HAPPY FASTING!!!
o yeah..before i go..theres this saying from mother theresa
" if we spent too much time judging people, we can never have the time to love them".
space out all..
me
Rest My CaSe at 2:27 PM
