Sunday, March 22, 2009

Title: Sunshine..

The weather has been pretty unpredictable lately.Rain and shine at the most unexpected timings making lots feeling sick.I have to admit that just like the weather i had a bad week last week.Fever,the company things,home and my personal self well..everything stinks.i shant go too much into details on things...but im glad that some things are settled and after last week im just hoping for a better week ahead.

Like after every storm, theres sunshine and calm days.It takes a lot to see the sunshine if the storm doesnt past so fast.One has to go thru the storm, endure the cold and thunder just to wait for the sun.But like every stormcloud the sunshine is there hidden behind.

For me, im just waiting for the sun..when its out the birds will cirp again and flowers will blossom once again.Nothing more for the week ahead.nothing more.

To my dear: Happy Anniversary.I always hope for the best of us in everything we do.Rain or shine, i will always be there for you.I love you, my sunshine.x x x

me

Listening to Nash-Tiada lagi kidung mu

Rest My CaSe at 11:03 AM



Thursday, March 19, 2009

Title: Cold cold business world

Starting a business is certainly not easy..having a business plan alone and vision or direction is never enuff.Getting the structure right is tedious and excuting it right to the tinest details is important..its a difference between closing sales and failing to do so..deals are ideally to be done quickly but its never an ideal situation..finance have to be taken seriously at all times and risk are always calculated.

Having people under you is another issue..different people with different characters,different opinions giving you different problems to deal with..

Customers, demands and expectations and delivery wil give one headaches.

internal matters aside, the business world is a cold world to be exact..there are more people out there that wants you to fail than succeed..everyone wants a slice of a share and will try to cut each other out to have the bigger share..many would think you are rich-they want a slice of you,your own business partner cld be your enemy,frds can become foe damaging frdships/relationships along the way..ppl will judge you and some will think you have ulterior motives in everything you do..you make fake frds and real enemies n you,end up fighting the worst enemy-- yourself..

leading a company, you try your best to make the right decisions,you work extra hours and you push yourself during the wee hours to get things done..you try to do things ethically but somehow you find out that its quite impossible at some extent and you have to go agaisnt your principle and beliefs to get things done..you cannot show your weakness and always have to show your presence in authority..you start to think more out of the box and every details to every cents counts suddenly..you want to ensure things are done correctly and controlling documents, stocks and monitoring staff all at the same time is exhausting...you run around to get things done..everyone starts to hit you with the problems expecting wise solution with reasonable explanations to your actions..you feel you need to breathe with all places you gone and ppl you meet..

the extra hours means lesser sleep,lesser sleep means lower appetite and lower appetite means you lose more weight..the stress factor affects you as a whole and you try hard not to show all your weaknesses or sign of breaking..all the factors and problems makes you bend and bend and bend.crack appears slowly..disappointments add to the crack and eventually might you snap or crack.

worst, you might take it out to your love ones,hurting them and you feel guilty at the end of the day..mending it takes time and adds to the stress..affecting your lil hours of sleep..you try to differentiate work and personal but its always always hard..your lil hour of sleep becomes nap eventually...at work u think about whats the best move next and think if today would be a better day wif you and the person you love..inside you shout out loud but the real fact is no1 hears you..you r supposed to be strong bcos you are leading smthin..in finding that balance again, you just wanna breathe..but theres hardly space to do so..

and at each point of despair and disappointent that you swallowed,inside you realise that you are human-a fact that many will forget-and you are just as vulnerable..whatever you are fighting for,you are actually just fighting yourself..fighting to be strong psycologically,resilient mentally and conditioned physically.

as the chinese saying goes," the greatest enemy to face in a war is yourself".

to my dear: i can be a different person in the company but when i get back, i just want to be me, your muhammad daniel, around you..thank you for being there,supporting me and keeping that smile on my face..behind a man is a woman to push,support, guide and inspire him..i thank you for being all that.i love you. x x x

me

leona lewis cover-bleeding love

Rest My CaSe at 5:22 AM