Friday, June 13, 2008
Title: What Happens when you find it..Before i met my dear, those that know me well would know that pretty much where i go or what i do, i go and do it alone..catch a movie, shop and etc..laugh if you want to..but its the truth..i never realie find it odd to do those things alone though frds would ask, "kau giler pe jln sorng2?"...
Well..to be honest..it was already at the point where i would say..."hey..if she comes along, she will come..if not..well...its ok..i try to make it on my own." kinda thing...when you cross a street and see a lonely gurl or walk into a bookstore and find a lady searching for a book alone..it did crossed my mind back then that maybe this person is lonely as well and a simple hi or hello would make 2 less lonely ppl then....haha...but never realie went up to any of them..lol.
Never realie thought that a soul out there would actually send a smile one day and that made a whole lot of different..the late nite talks,the jokes, the songs that we sang and many more..n as time goes by and the more i know of her, i am loving this person more and more each day,
Like the saying goes...it comes when u least expect it..
What started from a smile turned into smthin more than i expected..n the other day, while watchin my dear long awaited movie..sex and the city..this qns came from part of the movie..."what happens when we find it?" I never realie understood that cos well, my dear is the 1st for sure and while back then i would ponder on "who is she going to be? when is she coming?"..i never realie thought about..what happens when you find it..
SO what happens when we find it?..It refers to love in this context..the answer is a discovery and is a journey i have to say..For one thing i know,im loving tis fiery yet fragile soul and having a love return is indeed a great feeling..
We let it grow, we nuture it, understand it..dats what i found out..when two different souls meet wif differences in opinion, we try to understand why or where each others stand comes from..we try to understand why or what would hurt our partner and avoid it..avoid hatred, grudges or resentment and nuture and let it grow from the basis that brought two together..
love has a whole lot of meaning behind it..it has different interpretation to many..if spoken but unshown has little meaning.spoken but unshown has little value..if shown but unsaid..might leave one wondering whats the expressions all about..love won't grow if not sowed..just like a seed, w/o air, water or the sun it just a seed..
what is the measurement of love? what do we compare it to?the answer comes to the things we do for our partner..the things we do are the expression of our love to our partner..some might compare it to the sea, to the sky or anything that is infinite but what i find out is that it is the things e do for our love ones. A mother's endless love to a child for instance-where she sacrifies herself to give the best for her child..washing the clothes,feeding the child and many more..that is her expression of love for her child.A wife's love for her husband - taking care of his meal, clothings and many more... So just like a mothers love to a child or a wife to a husband, at the end of the day it is what we do , give and work for, for the benefit of our partner and the relationship is the measurement of love..give endlessly thats where love becomes unconditional.Touching and caressing which are also expression of love will come naturally when all is in place.
Accepting one flaws , respect and forgiving our partners for their limitations,speaking words of kindness and encouraging our other half to do their best..the list goes on n on n probably endless when it comes to showing how much we love some1.
well, for me i did told my dear that in this relationship, i would like to see us grow and move forward as a couple and as individuals as well...i would like her to try to push beyond her limitations or overcome her fears and see what she can achieve thru it with my support and vice versa..i believe in myself more wif her beside me..its amazing what the power of love can do..i am no expert in this love thing..i see,feel and analyse it...n try to understand why we are who we are when we are in love..
to my dear,Its about 9 more days to our engagement..yes,we've been busy preparing things here and there as well as looking around for the big event..plus with the business that we are starting together and our daily work, it can be pretty tiring at the end of the day and stress might get to either of us..but rest assure dear, i wont leave you walking thru all these alone..we will priorities our things and get things more settled..build and move towards our common dreams..we take it step by step and i believe we can do it just like how we finished your room..keep in mind that i love you and i wont give up should things get tuff for us ahead..slowly but surely we will achieve what we both dreamt of...insyallah..i love you..to all,
may you all be blessed with the love of your love ones always- be it from HIM ,our mom, dad, siblings or our other half..what happens next is a journey.
Space out..
me
Rest My CaSe at 2:25 AM
