Sunday, September 21, 2008
Title: THe hardest word to say...
At times, saying things we want to say or saying deep things is always the hardest things to say...
what more if its to the person we love...
came early to my dears place today to help her pack up her things for her 4 days or more on a vessel..packed the things she brought along..the necessary ones esp..well,packed it the army way...wif ziplocks to save space and protect the contents..never know ifit rains or anything aight...dat aside..
was packing her things ensuring everything is sufficient for her and at times while shes surfing the net, i looked at her..so many things i want to tell her..she knows i disapprove this trip but i dunnoe.im helping her pack..i guess theres this part of me that wants the best for her on this trip..back of my head i need to make sure that she has sufficient necessities and what she needs to make her comfortable there...its one of my unspoken ways of showing her i love her and will always ensure the best for her..
anyway,shes looking forward to this moment..going offshore..she talked to me about it..i be selfish right to deny her of this experience..was on board once myself..now let her feel it..n looking at the vessel she be staying..its wayyyymuch better than what i stayed on back then...
i know despite my reluctance,deep inside whatever she does or whever she goes,i always pray for her safety...i always prayed for her each time after praying..don't realie tell her about how shes always in my prayers.....n for this trip,its already part of her job and i will accept.
anyway, most of her things are packed now...few things left..shes beside me now watching bourne identity...left a letter in her back as well..before i take my leave in this entry...a lil note for my dear...
To my dear,
im never good at goodbyes, it always makes me cry...as much as possible,i look away when i have to say it..again, please take care of yourself on board..i always pray for your safety and you are always in my prayers each day..you are still the 1st person on mind each day i wake up and the last before i go to bed..you know i cant never sleep w/o knowing how u r doing...call me whenever you can k dear...i settle the things over here..im already missing your kisses,hugs this month..n now im gonna miss you as a whole for 4 days or more...again..take care of yourself,haf a safe and enriching experience and tell me all about it when you get back...n before i take my leave..again,i say it in words..i love you and will always keep you in my prayers for as long as we are together...
love,
me
Rest My CaSe at 2:27 PM
