Saturday, September 20, 2008
Title: My Pusuit of Happyness..
IN life, a lot of things we want to achieve or get...but whatever it is that we are after, it is something that gurantees us happiness we have what we want..
I am no exception...In my pursuit of happyness..i taste the hurt of failing, negativity and self doubt...past one half month..has been very very challenging for me..it came to a pt where i dont realie look forward to this upcoming hari raya..
In my pursuit of happyness..i hurt some parties...worst ws puttin my dear in an insecure position...despite assuring her that things will be ok..i know she has this doubt in her...i know she is stressed out..n i am part of that...
IN my pursuit of happyness, mom gave a lot of negative remarks...
two ppl that is my happiness, has doubt in me...i know that..they might hide it from me...but knowing them..i know whats on their mind..
Maybe the road to that happyness is tuff,its no longer a maybe...it is tuff...im going thru it...maybe i see that road..i love to see that road..but in that road...what matters is the two ppl that loves me and walks with me and not anyone would walk wif us the path.
i see myself now is exactly in that movie "in pursuit of happyness"...tuff,trying his best to prove two people he loves most he can make it...along the way, i did hurt and affected some parties..put them in situation they dont want to be..situation i said they never be in...
im not looking forward to this raya...i constantly thinkin of my best move...that sometimes it makes me have these minor headaches and it feels that my veins in the head is bursting...
before i go and break my fast, a lil shout out..
to my mom: abg tahu mama tak risau..abg cuba sedaya upaya abg at this point to keep abg pun ya promise...
to my dear: whatever happyness i am tryin to achieve, you are my biggest happyness..whateva assets i want to achieve...you are my biggest assest i never want to lose..i have to mentor now to help me achieve my happyness which is our happyness...believe in me and i assure you that it be a rewarding one when i make it...i'll give you something as an assurance that im serious about us and want to make it for us...
as much as i disapprove, please please take care of yourself on board...the least i can do is provide you with a comfortable experience with things you need and things i can buy or give you for your trip..i take this chance to susun sepuluh jari and mintak maaf zahir dan batin sekiranya abg ade sakitkan hati afah sengaja and tak sengaja and also buat u stress mcm gini...past one year,halalkan mkn minum abg..once again i mintak maaf..have a safe trip and selamat hari raya syng..i wait for you to get back.i love you.
to all: selamat hari raya.
to HIM: grant me that HAPPYNESS that i pursuing for..amin
space out.
me
Rest My CaSe at 6:32 PM
