Saturday, September 12, 2009
Title: The High and Low of life
As mentioned, this Ramadan is full of challenges for me..one thing after another..been on the highs of life b4 and now is the low...only He knows what i feel everyday...i pray to Him everday,asking for patience and strength..
For this month, apart from the challenges, a lot of hurtful words were exchanged to me..some having significant impact to point where i dont sleep soo much, i dont eat soo much,talked soo much and those words would keep playing in the head.at times, i feel im going thru depression.the same state when dad was very sick..having to make all the right decisions but carrying the burden of that decision..i rather not drive as i cant focus soo much on the road either..
for 1st time after yrs, i feel im sinking in a quicksand..and for the 1st time,i have to admit, i fall..my wife is being very patient and has been the one to pull me up slowly..that too, i can see wearyness and sadness in her eyes..im sorry she had to go thru this..we will pull thru..the rise will fall and fallen will rise again..life is a wheel they say..
None of what happened and none was expected..now i only have myself and myself to prove again that i can pull this thru...been thru it b4...and will go thru it again..
challenged mental, emotionally and physically..i will not concede when life is testing n pushing me...i will rise again slowly but surely...
to my wife: i love you and thank you from the deepest of my heart..we will pull thru this for sure.
to all,
space out..
me
Rest My CaSe at 10:00 AM
